Your hell is when you dream

I think I am gonna try to update more on this journal. I miss livejournal. So anyways...I dunno. I'm so bored right now but I have so much shit to do. I have these freaking projects. Why do they always give so much vacation homework...WTF! Well, I shall update more later.


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The End.

<--So cute

So yea....hah hah

Yesterday was good. Had band practice and we all went to Steph's house and Casidi came along cuz she is our head banger/stage manager/moral support/inspiration person ha ha. So yea we practiced and we got through the song we are working on but we need to figure out the drums part(cuz Drew wasn't there) and we need to write lyrics. HA HA bitches...moving along swellular!!! So yea we went through Stephanies clothes and listened to Regaeton and than danced around the house listening to indian music.

So anyways...yesterday was me and Jason's official anniversary but today we are going to do something. He is coming at 10 so that he could come with me to my dentist appointment.


Right now i'm listening to this Head Bangers Ball volume 2 cd that Kristina gave me and yes i did crank the volume up to 11 to the sweet sounds of Lamb Of God and Mastadon!!! ha ha Jamie JASTA!!!! So anyways...i think i'm going to start listening to emo...cuz ya know The Mars volta is such a great emo band ha ha!!! Nahh so yea i think i'll like screamo more than emo. So anyways...yea...Atreyu is cool...i should buy The Curse.


!!!!! I LOVE JASON!!!!!

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Yes...a man...a manly man...the manliest man out of all MAN-kind....

Grr...I hate this frustration/confusion/relief/anger/mushy/jealousy/selfconsciousness etc etc that I've been going through lately. I dunno what to think. Moments like this make me want to go and get a Labotamy (<<< I dunno how spell that word)

I hate being such a sensitive loser. I hate it...I wish nothing ever bothered me. But sometimes everything seem sto bother me...and I'm so intuitive and I always seem to know what is going at most times...but it all seems so coniving and...

Okay...I have all these different confusing thoughts all at once but all I know is that...I have gut feelings...perhaps i'm a worrier (that's why my friends call me Whiskers lol)

Anyways...I hope I am wrong but...like I have said before...It's undeniable...so undeniable...and what will I do...

Running is for punks...

Long way from home,
Lost by an echo
I’d never have known.

I’ve got pictures to prove I was there,
But you don’t care.

Here’s me overseas,
Across the pond by the Dover peaks.
I’ve smuggled myself into new nationalities,
You think you’d be proud of me.

There’s room to believe,
Out of sight,
Out of mind,
Out of reach.

Start over
Is no way to begin.
Long way from home,
Lost by an echo
I’d never have known.

I’ve got pictures to prove I was there,
But you don’t care.

There’s room to believe,
Out of sight,
Out of mind,
Out of reach.

Start over
Start over
Is no way to begin.

There’s room to believe,
Out of sight,
Out of mind,
Out of reach.

Start over
Start over
Is no way to begin.
No way to begin.
Way to begin.

Oh gee...like that wasn't more than obvious that your 'comments' are sideways. That your trying to throw the fire on a perfectly nice stack of wet sticks. Just go away and die. Jesus these ppl never fucking move on.

I'm not letting 'it' get to me. Considering how beyond this I am.

Well..Okay I suppose in reality...I'm not SOOO beyond it but...just know...I see you...not literally but...I'm not stupid...but...why bother...ewww...just move on.

...break your fucking face...

Today was fun. Jason woke me twice before I decided to get my lazy ass up and get dressed. He came over and we hung out and went to Wendys. So after we ate, we went to Duane Reade than went to Rite Aid cuz Jason wanted to be an insane crazy obsessed boyfriend and buy the same perfume that I wear so he could have it to spray all over everything. So we went to the park after that and I went on the swings and my nostalgia always gets the best of me than cuz it reminds me of the summer. So we came back to my house and we just goofed around and whatnot.

So...blahhh....I'm kinda tired right now....I dun think I could sleep though...Whatever...



xsunLx <3 xjsunx

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Damnit...I thought Jackie Chan was supposed to be like...my best friend or my brother from that other quiz...sickness...blehhh

Woop today was okay. Andrea came over a few hours ago at 9:00 and I had to clean my bathroom so we were chilling in the bathroom and I realized my mom had an unopened bottle of Chardonnay (OoO Fancy sheet) so yea it's a strange experience to be drinking and to be cleaning at the same time. It is very hard to consentrate. So yea...Andrea said that we weren't drunk but I think we were cuz she drew me a picture of a penis and than signed it and than afterwards we started dancing to the music that we were humming and than we ranted on about how we are both ex-ballerinas. Yes...I have not gotten drunk in awhile. So she ended up leaving, but I still had to finish cleaning my bathtub so I started cleaning my bathtub and...god...it was so trippy...I was sliding around everywhere and I got a little bit of tile cleaner in my eye. These are the days of our lives...

Well yes...I almost forgot to mention that today is me and Jason's 5th month anniversary. *tear* *starts blasting 'Total Eclipse of the Heart'* He He

It's kinda cute cuz today is my mom's one year anniversary with bang-a-bob. How lovely he he.

Sloppy Joes Sloppy Sloppy Joes...

Well...I'm kinda tired but oh yea I'm so happy cuz Frankie found, on this Evanescence website, the pics of the band from the concert we went to...*sigh* nostalgia.


So....I am not very tired so I'll just bullshit some more online until I pass out on my computer.

Crap...I'm not drunk anymore but shit I have a fucking headache...

I'm so gay. I can't stop listening to this Bonnie Tyler song. I'm soo mushy. I've become such an emotional person....jesus. I actually started crying while listening to this song. It is such a beautiful love song...and I am soo gay. That is the ultimate love song!! ULTIMATE!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!



*tear*


*sigh*



I <3 Jsun

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Today was pretty good. My mom took me shopping at the Galleria. It's been so long ='( Well on the way there we got pulled over by a cop cuz they are so gay and said my mom was tailgating. It was so dumb cuz we really weren't. Well anyways we went to the mall and it was freaking me out cuz I kept seeing some pplz from Lehman. So mom spoiled me and she bought me 2 skirts, a sweater thingy, a holey shirt, and some purple and black rubber bracelettes. Yay. I am going to try to make a jean mini skirt tonight. Well...i'm watching eight crazy nights and we also rented American Splendor which looks like one of those eccentricly funny kinda movies. Well...blahhh Adam Sandler is NOT funny. He just isn't funny...why did I used to think he was funny. God damn...my mind was soo clowded...how long have I been so blind to the fact that he is highly unfunny!!


I <3 Jsun

Eww i'm kind of eating for no reason. I made mac and cheese and I was kinda hungry before I made it and than It just killed me after 2 bites. I feel really wrestless and I almost starting doing 'that thing that I do despite how depressed I feel afterwards but I'm just curious', but the reason I stopped is very self explanatory. Well...I'm really bored and I took a really long bath cuz my leg was hurting and than I started listening to The Doors and read my Nocturnal Wicca book. Speaking of that, I am going on Mr.G's trip to Boston to see the Salem Witch Trial exhibit or something. I'm gonna sell some candy cuz I really want to go to THIS trip. So I need to just ask me mum but It is in May so i have a while to raise up some money. Well...I really need to find something to do...I should look for some alkeehole. Sadly I doubt I have anything good in my underground layer. So...she's not coming home. Could she make it any more obvious that she isn't. God...if I was a piece of shit teenager I could've invited 5 guys over, had an orgy, fallen asleep, make everyone breakfast in the morning and have them outta my house a few hours before she decides to stroll on back home. Well...I'm going to try to finish this poem I started. I hope everyone is having a superb drunken laughter filled night.

Well...tis Frie-day!! WOOP Spring break...I'm going to sleep my ass off (I'm not very sure but I've heard that is physically impossible but...we'll see about that bitchez) Well...I dunno...i'm kinda tired but I am forceing my self to stay awake late tonight in light of it being the beginnine of Spring Break and I'm gonna blink and it'll be time to go right on back to school. Well...I really need to talk to my dad. I'm kinda worrying about this shit now. Well...I need to stop writing 'Well...'. So yeah...I have to sew goddamnit...I'm already slacking off...I haven't made anything all week...I'm such a slacker...lol Not as much as someone else...yea you know who you are!! Well anyways...everyone better have a good Spring Break and PLEASE get drunk at least once for me!! WOOT...smokin the weed and lookin at the strobe lightz...strobe lightzz!! Ahem...yes!


xsunLx <3 xjsunx